i have a habit of starting projects (keyword: starting). at different times i became dedicated to sewing, learning to knit, making jewelry, becoming a photographer, and so on. and what do i have to show for it? a once used sewing machine (christmas gift from dad), knitting needles and leftover yarn, a handful of jemstones, a nikon n80, tripod and camera bag (bought with high school graduation gift money), etc. for some reason, i never seem to finish these projects that i’m initially so passionate about. am i a quitter? or maybe just lazy? do i have hobby ADD?
i’ve recently thought of starting a vegetable garden, but the idea of potentially not completing another project has me feeling a little wary of the inevitable guilt associated with not finishing something i set out to do. then again, maybe it’s not inevitable. maybe i need to commit to doing something that challenges me.
"what does this have to do with yoga?" you might be wondering. some teachers think that whatever it is that makes you uncomfortable or whatever is difficult is what you need to do. i think there’s validity to that argument, but it isn’t my style. as a teacher, i tell my students they should do whatever makes them feel good in that moment. my personal practice reflects that sentiment; mellow flow is my favorite.
am i being too easy on myself by doing what it is that feels good? and on my students by encouraging them to do the same?